Last year, I only made one New Year’s resolution: to complete a triathlon before I graduated from college. The clincher was that I had to keep it a secret from my family and friends until a few weeks before because I wanted to make sure that I was training for me, and not because I wanted to impress others. I also think it was my way of ensuring that if I quit part of the way through, no one would ever know about it.
Here’s an excerpt from the (secret) blog I kept during my training:
The reason why I decided to do all of this was because I want to accomplish something awesome before I graduated. For awhile there it seemed like this wasn’t going to work out but then God showed me this one in Raleigh so I’m very happy about that. I’m not telling anyone about this until a week or two before my race, when I invite my family and friends to come watch me. Hopefully, they’ll come. In all honesty, if I can pull this off I would be so proud of myself. I quit alot of things so to see this through would be an amazing graduation gift to myself :)
It was an incredible experience that was great for my relationship with God because I had no one else to talk to but Him. He was the only one who knew what I was doing, so I had to come to a point where I leaned wholly on Him and trusted that He would get me through all of it. Quite honestly, that’s how I should be living all of my life. Here’s another excerpt from when training became more difficult:
I just came back from running all the way around east campus which is 1.7 miles and that took me a bit under 20 minutes. Let me tell you something running outside is a lot harder (alot) than running on the treadmill. I feel like I’m about to die. How do people start their day with a run? I feel ready for bed right now.
The cool thing was that through it all I just kept praying for God to give me strength and He did. so thanks God, you always come through for me. I wonder if I did the east wall 3 times a week if I’d be better? Well I have 84 days to be able to run around the wall twice, swim for 15 mins and bike for about an hour…
God help me.
A month later, I wrote this post:
I ran around the east wall twice today without stopping, which is a little more than a 5K. I’m shocked. Before today, the farthest I had run around east was about 1 1/2 times and when I was done I wanted to die (If you totaled up all the times I’ve wanted to die during this whole process, you would question my motivation for doing this haha). Plus this time when I ran it, I ran it faster than I did the time I did less. In fact, I had enough energy to kick it into high gear for the final stretch and finished it in 37 minutes. I have no idea if that’s good (I doubt it because I got passed by people) but still, I am so proud of myself and so thankful to God. I feel better after this run, than the first time I barely finished running around east. My improvement in running has been really amazing to expereince. I’m going to credit it to God continously carrying me and to that track workout on Thursday (Thanks Robert!)
I feel so energized right now, like I probably have more energy now, than when I left for my run. I’m turning into a runner! My one disappointment is that I’m not there in cycling. I need to find a road bike :( I’m kind of worried about that and have been praying about it, so we’ll see.
Wow, I feel wonderful right now :)
Keeping a secret from your family and friends is hard too. I had asked my parents to come down to Durham 2 weeks before graduation but I wouldn’t tell them why. My good friend Ij questioned why I was auditing her Pilates class randomly and running down at the track afterwards. My friend Lee wondered why I had brought a bike to spring break. My friends Ruthie and Kristyn wondered why they had caught me in the gym locker room in a bathing suit when I had left the senior night basketball game at halftime to go to a “meeting”.
Even towards the end when I was worried about which bike I was going to ride, my friend Mary came through and let me borrow hers, which was a huge blessing. God once again, provided for me. When I crossed that finish line and saw my family and friends, I realized it was all worth it. It was honestly one of the greatest experiences in my life, I learned alot about myself and God in the process.
This year I kept thinking about what I want my New Year’s resolution to be, and I don’t know. There are little things, but its really hard to try and top last year’s resolution. Its the only resolution I’ve ever kept :)
photos courtesy of Ashleigh Martin and Shane Hutchinson
So for a brief period of time I thought, as did a few people, that the State of the Union address would occur on Feb. 2, the same day as the Lost premiere, but my prayers were answered because Lost beat Obama. And I’m okay with that.
I’ve been changing my blog around alot the last few days and I’m pretty happy with it the way it is now. I may change the title… but I’m not sure. If I can be diligent enough to blog about the crazy things that happen to me, I’ll keep the title if, not it’s got to go, because I feel like it wouldn’t make much sense…
If I call you on your birthday and you don’t pick up, so I leave a message; PLEASE call or text me later to let me know you got the message. It’s only polite right? Well believe it or not, some people dont feel like even atleast texting me back. This has now happened atleast 6 times to me within the last few months and to be honest, I find it confusing. I mean I know I don’t return every call I get, but if someone called on my birthday, I would definitely call them back to acknowledge receipt of the message. It’s not like I call so that you can tell me what a great friend I am for remembering, it’s because I genuinely want to talk to you (chances are, it’s been awhile) and I want a life update. Anyways, if your birthday has passed and I didn’t call, I apologize, I’m not always on top of things so: Happy Belated Birthday!
But, yea I am just really frustrated so I want to make this a PSA for anyone who reads this because I probably care about you and may call you on your birthday, if I don’t give up in discouragement before then. Thanks for reading :)